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Although this isn’t one of my favorite pondering topics, it is very real and I spend a lot of time doing it.  I’m currently sitting beside my husband of 41 years while chemo is pumped through a port in his chest to slow the progression of lung cancer.  We are both all too familiar with this procedure and all too familiar with the probable outcome.  We do however, continue to pray for a miracle while giving thanks for our desire to grow closer to God.  In doing that, we are also well aware it will be His will that will be done.

My reading choice for today is from the book of 1 Samuel, chapters 16-18.  This book, along with 2 Samuel, is our current study material.  I try to start with prayer to keep me focused, to help me tune out all distractions, to keep my mind focused and help to grasp any message He may want to send me.  (Currently the itching reaction has started and he’s about going nuts with it so a major distraction is taking place) ……………. after stopping the chemo and an injection of Benydryl, Dr visit, monitoring …… he is improving. 

I’m done pondering, at least done writing …… I want a miss deal approved.  I am over it.