dar334

I woke up this morning after a good night’s sleep and my mind immediately kicked into high gear.  So many things, too many things, the hamster in my brain was running as fast as he could on that wheel that takes you nowhere.  I mindlessly read my daily scripture in 1 Kings and 2 Chronicles as I sipped on that first cup of coffee, and I can honestly say nothing at all was absorbed let alone retained for future reference.

On my drive to work I revisited recent happenings and conversations that were mixed with old happenings and conversations and nothing seemed to “mesh”.  I felt an overwhelming sadness.  I felt lost.  Defeated.  I prayed that I would be able to discern the voice of God today, if he had something to tell me, although I’m fully aware that in order to “hear” you have to enter “silence” and “silence” wasn’t going to happen for at least 9 hours.

Last night we watched the video for lesson 3 at the end of our “Discerning the Voice of God” study.  Ms. Shirer referenced Proverbs 3:5.  I smiled when she did because of the comfort I get from it when all else fails.   My mind then wandered back to a dark and hopeless moment when I memorized Proverbs 3:5-6.  Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight.  It has soothed me to sleep more nights than I can count.

During the “Paperwork Shuffle” at my desk, I picked up my phone to check my email.  As usual, my finger tapped the trash can a few times, I clicked on some messages just long enough to get the new mail symbol to go away, saving them to read another time.  For some reason, I opened todays “Turning Point” email.  The first thing I read was “Lean not on your own understanding.”  Proverbs 3:5.  Ok.  This is NOT a coincidence.   For one thing, I don’t believe in coincidences.  I smiled and shook my head, and went to Mr. Webster, because that’s how I roll.  I searched for coincidence, mostly to verify my conclusion.  This is what he had to tell me:

co·in·ci·dence: the occurrence of events that happen at the same time by accident but seem to have some connection

After pondering this “coincidence” for a few minutes, I then scrolled to the bottom  of the email only find Pastor Jeremiah’s “Read through the Bible: Psalms 119”. . . . . . . . .  BACK. UP. THE. TRUCK!  This is the same Psalm Ms. Shirer also referred to last night!  I remembered it because it’s the longest Psalm or book of the Bible.  And I remember that because it’s my husband’s birthday.  1-19.

I realize there is a “format” so to speak of, where certain scriptures are taught during certain times of a usually 3 year period, so had Pastor Tim mentioned these 2 scripture verses along with Pastor Jeremiah it would make perfect sense.  Coincidence would not play a part, these 2 Pastors were simply following the official “format” of teaching.  But Ms. Shirer?  She does lead a church, but this study is not in the “format” of things to do.  It is simply the study we are in at the time.  It wasn’t even just released.  There is no logical reason for these same scriptures to be brought to my attention this week, in just 2 days  . . . . . . . .  unless . . . . . . . . . . I AM is behind it.  Right?  RIGHT?

I’ve read them on and off today.  Over and over.  I’m not hearing anything.  I don’t know what it is He wants me to hear.  We will be going on vacation shortly.  I’m taking my bag ‘o books and my Kindle which has a couple books I recently purchased downloaded.  I’m anxiously awaiting this vacation.  Perhaps He is trying to tell me this is the time I need to “submit to him”  by entering silence with the Word.  I’m going with that, unless of course, He tells me differently.

Trying not to fall off the path,

-dar